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feeling so. . . [28 Nov 2008|07:27pm]
[ mood | thankful ]

damn lucky.

sometimes, well most of the time I take so much for granted.

I have a decent job
I have a decent car
I have a decent house

and you know how I know I take it for granted? Because I say all of it is decent. They're blessings.

I just had to get that out there, I don't feel too good right now
but I just felt like ranting.

Where the hell is my creativity when I need it?
Damn you and your righteous ways.

Don't worry, be happy.

A sober life is A b e a u t i f u l life ;]

dun dun dun

I don't know why [17 Oct 2008|09:17pm]
I'm killing myself with this crap, seriously! haha.

uhm, I have this horrible anxiety,
and most of it is due to the fact
that I wasn't true to myself
and I didn't express my feelings.

how weird huh?

And ever since last Saturday night/ Sunday morning,
I've seriously been getting all these signs.

All telling me to go, but I can't, at least
not yet. It hurts ;/

tomorrow I'm going to take my motorcylce class
HOPEFULLY there will be a spot for me

but a minor update:
I became a manager for amc
I was able to open amc plaza bonita 14

Still at SWC

and I'm extremely interested in Aerospace engineering
and Quantum physics.

I'm starting to get into more technical computer
stuff, we'll see how that pans out.

dun dun dun

;] [10 Feb 2008|05:12pm]

it feels good to take a break.

it's making my heart desire you more ;]

dun dun dun

escuela [14 Jan 2008|11:56pm]
[ mood | creative ]

so i started school today

mwf engl 115
tth math 45
m-f span 102

esta bien. ;]

i don't know what to do,
i like this guy,
but i don't know if i like this guy,
you know what i mean?

haha at least i got a good
run in today 1 mile, decent enough

i feel like i need my best friend
to breathe again, she's the only one
i can truly vent to w//:out being
or having a sense of judgement passed
by what her opinion will be

but whateva, i'll hang w//: her on thursday ;]
i love you bestie, and i can't wait for the baby
she's due any day now.

btw, i love older guys
i want to give myself
to the ever so tasty dr. drew
pinsky, yum. ;]

dun dun dun

so [09 Jan 2008|11:22pm]
[ mood | crushed ]

so i feel kinda crushed

but i'm so stoked!

i was somewhat into this guy,
however i don't think he's into me,
but s'all good;] i'll show him!


but i like feelin' crushed
'cause i have that vulnerable
feelin', which is great, because i can
finally start writing!;]

but yes yes,
i have a date manana w//: matt;]
pretty stoked 'bout that, but anywho

be safe ljerz.

dun dun dun

sometimes [08 Jan 2008|01:43am]
[ mood | i want an easel ]

sometimes, just sometimes

i wish i was depressed again,
that may sound weird,
but writing was an outlet for my
depression, and the work
that was coming forth from it
was unbelievable. . .

I really miss writing, but
it seems as though, I never have
time to do it. . .

I just want to start likin' someone,
and then just get my heart crushed,
just so i have that extra emotion
;x. . .

and everybody knows it. . .
no they don't. . .

i have a big day tomorrow,
but if i'll follow through, that's
another thing!

..//..There's no blame for how our love did slowly fade
And now that it's gone it's like it wasn't there at all
And here i rest where disappointment and regret collide..//..

you're stuck in my head
ingrained in my thoughts,
i try to filter you out
but i'm contaminated by your touch
and endulged by your quarter beat words.
pant. ;x

dun dun dun

so [03 Jan 2008|06:14pm]
[ mood | crappy ]

as a last resort, well not exactly

but I'm goin' to start pourin'
out my feelin's w//:out any
remorse for myself.

i see that none of my lj friends
are active, so i feel as though
i'm safe enough to post some deep thoughts,
i mean i can always make it private, right?

sometimes my mom is really mean,
i'm mean too, why am i like her so much?
i don't get it, nor do i think i'll
ever want to understand it.

there's just this underlying unacceptance
that kills.

you are my sunshine,
my ONLY sunshine ;]

i need a new sunshine!
'cause this last one felt like a
total eclipse ;x

dun dun dun

really? [02 Jan 2008|10:58pm]
[ mood | content ]

i haven't posted in my l.j
in exactly one year to this date.

weird isn't it?

out of all the 365 days of the year,
i post exactly one year after my last.


but anywho.
i graduated high school ;]
w//: my 4.0 ;]

haven't gotten too serious w//: anyone

I'm attending swc, and I totally
survived my first semester of college!

but yee, same ol'

I'm startin' to get more into the
whole special effects aspect of the career
I'm choosing, and I LOVE IT!

still workin' at amc.
tryin' to become a manager...

and again, I'm bleedin' my life away,
poor eggs, I'm thinkin' about sellin' some
of 'em ;]

put them to use, for something. . .

I'll try to get on, and actually
write some, interesting stuff! ;x

dun dun dun

summer time in tha LBC [02 Jan 2007|04:59am]
[ mood | cranky ]

at last.

i have returned to old faithful..

thy livejournal.

i forgot internet bloggin' still existed.

but anyhow i had an awesome christmas,
all together with an awesome year.

i'm still workin' at amc,
i managed to go from film crew,
to film crew lead to
O.C which is the equivalent to
an assistant manager

'i said i'm gonna play with myself'

i don't feel to well, i'm about
to bleed my offspring away

and i have cramps.
as well i feel dehydrated.


so plans after high school.
i just realized, 07
is seriously my year.

can't wait...

[excuse my post for it is full
of posting pastyness with no flavor
nor destination.]

i'm scatter brained right now..

when i read old entrys
and i'm like, wow, i really wrote that?

ooh, how i love creative writing.


y2k can suck my chode.
leave me broken, shattered, yet alive.


dun dun dun

note to self;; [27 Apr 2006|07:40pm]
[ mood | hungry ]

note to self...

remember to pick up letter
that i wrote in freshman year from mrs. dempsey
please ;]]]

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